Sunday, July 8, 2012

Being You!


You are practical, insensitive and emotionally drained!
I grew up hearing these compliments (I choose to take them that way) from every soul who was close to me and over a period of time I started believing in them too. Acting stronger than I was, being a loner when all I wanted was a long conversation over a cup of coffee, getting on without support when a little help would have actually made it better and being someone else when my inner self was dying to surface above.

  In short, I screwed up and I am happy to admit now. I took refuge in somebody else’s perception and let it take all control. I took the practicality as my perfection and thought that any kind of attachment will cause me nothing but pain. And I actually went through a lot of pain not because of attachment but because of lack of it. The shell of loneliness that I created has left a void in me which I find difficult to fill now.   

  I can no longer fill these voids as they have become big enough to engulf me but I hope to peacefully coexist with them. Living with them every moment will make me surer of who I am and who I was being.

This reminds me of these very beautiful lines by Janis Joplin
“Never compromise yourself; you are all you have got”

10 comments:

Anshul Vasu said...

ohh ...this touches me too at this moment!!
the thing about your blog posts is that they are short!! give them another 100 words or so!! i really want to read the posts..but they finish too soon.!! anyway keep up the good work!! and *LIKE for being active :P

Vindhya said...

I can totally connect to your story...First we allow people to make certain perceptions abt ourselves n den we simply make it our comfort zone...which actually shud nt b d case..
Keep blogging!! :)

Anonymous said...

Bhavi u write so deep sometimes I cant figure it out, is it u who hold this ocean of feelings. A human can face in his life time but never find words to express. U got tht talent baby!! u r alayws inspiring n like a fountain..... lots of love n care from ma side kid!!

thegalnxtdoor said...

I could relate with this post a lot. Like you, I had once withdrawn into loneliness, till it threatened to engulf me. Fortunately, I realised my foible on time and rectified it. I can't say I am a very outspoken person - the ghosts of the past still linger - but I am better than before and all for good. :)

Samruddhi Chaphale said...

your writing is real !

truly inspirational

happy writing bhavi :)

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Kruger Brent said...

hi...your writing style is different...a little tough to grasp the meaning between the lines.
good work anyways
i am totally opposite of you i guess impractical, sensitive and too emotional! and it really sucks for me to be myself...dnt knw why

bhawna said...

@kruger
being yourself can never suck!!!
try to accepting yourself and fore mostly...love yourself!!!

goingbeyondthepages said...

Liked the plain bluntness and openness in your thoughts. :)

Game changer said...

rightly said.........