Saturday, October 3, 2009

Its a new life....


My apologies to all (actually few) readers who follow my blog and to all those whom I force to follow!

I year back, not even in my wildest dreams I would have imagined that one day I’ll land up in a hostel in a small city like bathinda…miles away from my comfort zone which had had been my perpetual state for last 18 years.

Long back ago it was just a hypothesis that hostel is not a place for a person like me whom I consider to be noisy shy. It’s actually the worst kind because nor does anybody know neither believes that noisy could be shy, but I am…end of all discussions! But after spending about one and a half month in the hostel my conviction is growing stronger and stronger that hostel is not a place where I'll ever want to be. Hostel is meant for hard core diplomats who are only good at one thing…manipulating stuff, not for an empty nutshell like me (I am just exaggerating things)

My life has changed drastically, from being a blunt spoilt and a brat I m trying to mould myself into a responsible person (hey I m actually...Didnt I show you my head girl batch) passing out fake smiles and giving out an illusion of a sycophants. Adjustments, compromise, sharing, are just some of the dreadful words that have become an indispensable part of my daily dictionary.

But somewhere I feel this is exactly the beauty of life

Trying to adjust in a place that’s never meant for me…..

Attempting to build I shell around me that’s as fragile as a crystal dome….

Forcing my heart to fill the voids that I suppose will never get filled…

Endeavoring to pacify the rage that’s untamable now…

Finding ways to suppress the pain that will linger on and on and on…

6 comments:

live ur said...

hey dear...i totally understand what u r going through...and as they say that there's a first time for everything in life and u only realise the worth of something when u r away from it...
u know if there r obstacles in your path, that only shows that u r on the right track...so chill n njoy this phase of life which will never happen again...tc

purvashi said...

hey swthrt life is beautifully strange js enjoy d beauty in all its form...cheers...tc luv u..
don't worry m wid u n together we'll rock GZS!!!

Ribha said...

Hey dear.. i personally feel that i am not the right person to comment since i have never been a hosteler...but being your senior from the same college i can surely say that after five years you will miss this place like anything... I can understand that what you are going through, coz i was also turmoiled with these storms of affliction when i was a first year student. But then i must say that it is a part of life and with each passing day you will learn something....or rather become mature... Sweetheart all the best and may GOD bless you...
Rock GZS!!!Byee n tc
Ribha

karan said...

GREAT GIRL U R DOING A GREAT JOB.......
U'VE GOT BETTER WITH EVERY BLOG.....
HOSTEL LIFE IS A BIT TOUGH.....
I'VE LIVED IT FOR 12 YEARS.....
ITS JUST THE BEGENING.....
BUT BELIEVE ME WHEN U PASS OUT IT WOULD GIVE U SO MANY MEMORIES THAT U WOULD CHERISH AND OFTEN FEEL NOSTALGIC ABOUT IT.......
I CAN ONLY GIVE U 1 FREE KI ADVISE.......
ENJOY IT EVERY THING WILL FALL IN PLACE ITSELF.

sahil said...

i cn understnd u vry wll. i wnt thru d same phase......... bt sm gd things r always dr 4 u...

Anshul said...

i always say this that hostel can only help you grow in life...its gives you a glimpse of the outside..and you've got 5 yrs to make perfect strategies about handling different kinds of people....because let's face it..as you as you go out of the college you will have to deal with all sorts of people....so better learn now...