We breathe, we eat, we walk, we laugh, we cry, we feel
euphoric, we go through despair, we want people, we want to be alone, we win,
we lose, we love, we hate and yes sometimes choose be in between. And thus we
survive. But do we live?
This question has been hovering around with me for so many
years. At the age of 6 I asked my mother, “Why was I born”?
“To be my daughter and give me company” was my mother’s
reply. I was in total disagreement with her as I thought I was born to become
Miss Universe. (You can read about it here). I was living to become Miss
Universe.
Few years later I again asked myself the same question and
left it unanswered. The woes of having an inquisitive mind is that once it goes
on seeking an answer, it will rest only after finding. You can try to subjugate
it, try to ignore it, try to crumple it but it will not stop bothering without
meeting its goal. And when it does find its goal, life becomes more blissful
and beautiful.
Few days back while coming back from office, I was feeling
unusually intrigued about my future prospects. So much that I began talking to
myself, going to and forth on every nuances and facets. I was completely unaware
of the world around me. Two children walked past me. One was around 3 and the
other 6. The younger one was in a bad mood with tears welled up in his eyes,
face turned red and steps refusing to go ahead. I took few steps back and
turned to them. The elder one kept his gaze fixed on the ground and whispering
to the little one to move quickly. The younger one looked straight into my eyes
and suddenly my whole being smiled.
The eyes gave u tears and acquired a tinkle, face left the
redness and lit up while the kid gave away the smile I had not seen and felt
earlier. I kissed the kids and went away. The kids unknowingly taught me
something which my books could not. I truly lived in that moment, the moment of
pure happiness, happiness that is not conditional and dependent. It stems out
from your own being, your being which is devoid of any kind of materialistic
values. It gives away the notions of worldly love and tells us to not just
survive but live.
And yes, we do live.